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Jan 18Liked by Rudy Fischmann

Wow! I, too, want to hear more about the Werner Herzog firing! I also have a morbid curiosity as to how and why Vince McMahon fired you. (I know some die-hard wrestling fans and a guy involved in the Netflix documentary about wrestling!)

Now for the other stuff. If I may, I will start using your saying of “upbeat but realistic” when faced with folks asking me how I'm doing, which happens quite often—I imagine with you as well. For me, not only the cancer diagnosis but so many other things. That is a succinct and perfect retort. ♥️

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I have to give credit to Molly Marco for the phrase even though she doesn’t remember saying it ever. BUT I HAVE IT ON VIDEO!

I got fired from WWE for not fitting in aka being unable to my disdain for Vince. Also I wasn’t that great at my job. Herzog fired me for pointing out that he was wrong in a meeting.

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Jan 17Liked by Rudy Fischmann

Man, the LA entertainment industry PA lifestyle hit home. Spent my first years out of college on unscripted shows-- a Wild West if I’ve ever seen one.

Feel like with cancer/illness sometimes people mistake being realistic with negativity (because why would you ever bring up dying!). Can be liberating to just admit the ship is taking on water so you can right it.

Also would be cool to get a listen to those Speicialists demos. Just sayin. Or hear more about that Werner Herzog firing. New reader, thanks for the writing.

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Exactly with the ship taking on water. It doesn’t mean you’ll sink but you better be ready to do something about it just in case.

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Jan 17Liked by Rudy Fischmann

Let's talk about that $130/month apartment. Was there a roommate? I had a super duper cheap place once in Richmond - $250 a month for a 2 bedroom place I first split with my roommate ($125 each) and the paid ALL BY MYSELF.

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The place was $390/month total I think. 5-bedroom 1 bath but was surprisingly nice for what one might expect with that description. Or at least how I remember because my 20-something standards weren't too high. I split it with a couple and we would rotate bedrooms regularly. It was across the street from the recording studio where George Clinton recorded Atomic Dog which sounds fancy until you realize that most of the background vocals were done by crackheads and drug dealers he pulled from the street outside, lol. Also my next door neighbor was a pre-White Stripes Meg and Jack White. But I accentuate the PRE part. My room mate was asked to be the bass player because he didn't want to change his last name to White so Meg and Jack decided to just be a two-piece. I'm told by my friend Molly that the area is super trendy and expensive now.

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Jan 17Liked by Rudy Fischmann

That's pretty cool about the White Stripes! I think they actually made some pretty good rock music, and I don't think that about a lot of 21st century bands, so pretty high praise (for me).

I remember a squat house (not really exactly that, but that's what the crust punx called it) where they had divided a 3 bedroom up into like 10 or 12 rooms, even using curtains to divide rooms. Gross, but also awesome if you were 19 or 20 and into "screw the system" thinking.

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I had lived previously in a place like that so thus my standards may have been skewed.

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Jan 17Liked by Rudy Fischmann

My standards for housing were LOW.

Then again, it was the south, so if it got cold, you could survive. If it got hot, you would just be really hot, generally.

We could probably trade awful stories about this time.

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Jan 17Liked by Rudy Fischmann

Thanks for a curious trip down your punk-memory-lane. You're definitely rocking (punking?) the look in that first photo.

As for negativity being liberating, I think you're on to something. It may be an extreme way to "silence the inner critic" that many of us are told to do in order to be creative. If your inner critic basically says "Fuck it, I don't even care" - it lets you stop filtering things out and iterate quicker.

That, or I'm just overanalyzing things. (Shut up, inner-critic Daniel, you know nothing!)

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Yeah, I dunno either. I just do things cuz it seems to be doing more good stuff than bad.

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